silly fantasies tend to come back and bite you in the ass.

Oh and make you feel like an idiot...

I like to drown them out with caffiene and x-files marathons.

peace, kt

I keep feeling that I am wandering farther and farther away from the way I used to think...not that that is all bad, changing your thinking as you do more and more in life is a good thing...

i just sometimes wish that I was "my old self" again, with certain crap removed or added.

i guess that I am just growing away from everything that I used to be attached to. Take home for instance. Home is just kinda there. My comfy bed is kinda there, i love the backyard and woods (they've inspired me in so many ways), my badass Willow kitty is there (but no Spike-kitty or Rosy-dog so its tinged with some grey)...yup thats about it. I can take the rents in small doses, and 3 teen-age brothers just annoy me and barely want to have anything to do with me. Heck right now I am aching to move further than 10min away...like out west would be Awesome!!! so i'm crossing my fingers and hope that when the time comes to work on getting interships together, I get one out there. Ok i lie. somewhere just not here.

I used to be a lot more spiritual. one bad thing about KU is that I don't have those people around me that I had at PSU. Just something personal that I need to get my act together on.

I'm slowly starting out to be a vegetarian...right now i'm attempting to eat no red meat and trying to phase out chicken. Its just more for health reasons than anything else...and to see if i can actually finish something that I start.

I ramble and no1 reads this anyway...

~kt

i have a night off to goof off. nothing really due tomorrow. nothing until really next week. i got to chill with old mpr friends and read and buy a new cd, but i feel so lonely.

dammit being a workaholic sux. i feel down when theres nothing absolutely important to do.

i'm tired

and i miss my man

thats why

~kt

F all this crap. I could be having a pretty decent day and then everything crashes around me.

stupid stupid courses. all the courses i need to take are only offered in the fall, not the spring. which really really screws things up.

i really do not want to have to go to KU for one more semester than i have to or God forbid one more year than i have to.

other than that, i am sick of everything else

sick of homework

sick of men

sick of KU

sick of always being tired

sick of not getting what i need to do done

sick of life

~kt

ps: no one reads this shit anyway so wtf difference does it make?